Guess what?

Yes, its Friday. Oh glorious Friday! Well the past week has been a lot of drama. After friends betraying me, one telling nothing can happen between us and just pure depression, I have realized I am stronger then I believe I am.YES! FOUR I's in that sentence so sue me!! Anyway, I have found myself in a pit of happiness, I found out who I am. It took me a while, eh? Well, I could tell you right now that I am the most happiest person in the world. But the truth is I am not. You see, the only reason I found myself was when Astrade and I came the conclusion that nothing could ever happen between us. I am over him.

I sat in the dark because he told me to 'embrace the darkness.' I did, I sat there for 4 hours thinking to myself, reflecting on myself. Letting the darkness flow threw me. I let it empty me out. I let the darkness gently take its ghost like hands and cleanse me. I remembered Astrade then thought to myself.
"I can live with out him, I can." I could be alone. That was Wednesday I believe.

Yesterday, Thursday,
I thought I could read this kids mind. I could read Brian Green's mind, crazy? I think so, I believe that I was imagining it, but I was sitting there and I had my head down on the lunch table and I heard a loud ping in the back of my head. I looked up and Brian asked me "what's wrong?" I looked into his eyes asking myself 'am I crazy?' "I am sick and broken hearted." I said to him in my mind. Then he nodded and I put my head back down. It was el' strango.

Renea! Mrs.Renea took my spot at the lunch table next to Astrade! Oh well, I guess it is because Astrade is Renea's best friends girlfriend. I hope we don't drift apart, that would break my heart. I was writing in health today, I was writting a poem and Astrade asked to see it. I told him no. Because it was about him and I feared he would turn away... I didn't finish it but here:

Unfinished Poem;

I have no owner,
Therefore I am alone,
depression makes my legs weak,
I am disgusted with myself,
I refuse to eat.
Heart broken and lonely,
shot down.

That's it, Yes it is a very depressing poem. But that's the way I was feeling at that point. Can't help it. I was feeling under the weather today, I was so sick. Ugh.

My party is tomarrow! I feel like something will go wrong. That would suck. I hope everyone has fun! Its going to be quite lovely tomarrow! HIGH IN THE 60'S! lol
great weather.

I love you all!

~kitsune22000

Well, 
guess what...I am 15 and happy to be it. Finally after all these years of saying I was 15 on the internet. Now the burden is gone. I am ordering from fortunatoes today buying lunch for my sisters and I...the grand total 30.56. I just spent half of my birthday money. Yep! half the money I got for my birthday on a meal. But I got there kick ass onion rings!!! I love there Onion rings. But later in life I will grow fat and not able to move my fat ass off the couch. Leading to a heart attack and sever complacations with my heart. Oh well! I am killing my self, let me do so. Hey atleast I am not dying now.

My aunt lee called last night but I missed a call again. She said she would call back but she never did. And speaking of which Astard called me yester day and told me happy belated birthday. I was upset the day before because he didn't call. But the first one to call my birthday morning was billy. I love billy! *laughs.* we always do that Then lydia my bestest kick ass friend in the whole wide world called me. We talked for a while scraeming retarded things a lot...But it was fun.

Lydia, by the way told me about this website last night. It's www.Urbandictionary.com . On the website you can get definitions to slang words. Such as re re, fuck tard and much more! We were recording our voice on it and saying the pronouncation of different words and it was fun. I also sent one of my friends, Matt a sound file of me singing but it sucks uber. I can't sing although people tell me I can. It's strange.

I suppose I didn't yet tell you about the project I am doing. It is for health and the project was suppose to be about the perfect food. Astrade, requested Kangaroo and I happily went along with the idea. Although I am the one doing the poster which is the biggest part. I am hardly done, and I swear to god if I have to present this thing I will kill Renea and Astrade! (Renea is the other female in our group she is one of my friends.)

Now this is the last paragraph I will write today so listen up! I am having a party on the 16th for my birthday. I think that it will be a disater. I have 25 people coming and I think someone is bringing DDR. Joey might bring D&D... I am not sure about this, I think something is going to go wrong. Or I could have a shitload of fun with Lydia there! 
By the way: I am writing a story, w00t!

~kitsune22000 

Welcome back to Tuesday.
A lot has happened since the last I have written in this. We have had eventful happenings, we now have three working computers in the house instead of the one big one. Thanks to my Aunt Dee, which I love to death. My birthday is in 2 days on April 7th! I will be turning that magic number...15. Not 16...but 15...and that is good enough for me! What does turning fifteen mean?

Being 15 means!  

1. In 9 months I can climb onto the dangerous road! And get hit by cars! Yay death!!!
2. Hopefully I will make it to my Sophomore year... yeah right.
3. I will hopefully have a job...at the schools auto body shop.
4. I will be a great Auto body student.
5. PMS, becomes more bearable.
6. A huge birthday party at the end of my 15th year living.
7. Hey, I have lived for 15 years in this bitter world!!! yah!!!

~Anyway~

^^

That's me!
Captions say...
[Yes! >> This is me...>> Hey you wake up in the morning just to get shoes...which you will burn later...>>PFFT...]

Today Astrade was sick again. I am worried about him, I hope he is alright tomarrow...He probably won't be in school tomarrow. We are doing a health project tomarrow on the "Perfect Food." And we are doing Kangaroo...
YES KANGAROO!
There you go peta!
Sue me!!!

speaking of which!

~RANT ON OBSESSIVE PETA PEOPLE!~
I am tired of sitting in lunch eating a chickwich and some one coming up to me and saying.
"YOU KNOW HOW THEY KILLED THAT CHICKEN? THEY HUNG IT UPSIDE DOWN AND LET IT BLEED FROM THE INSIDE OUT." I don't care let me eat my fucking chicken in piece!!! I understand...Rights for animals...blah blah blah...I didn't kill them, Perdue did...So go away. If I want to eat deer then let me eat them! They are like more populated then beetles.

~out with rant~


Oh yes!
I must explain something before I end this! I am an  Auto body student!
A male dominated posisition, and I am a girl. Let me tell you all the guys in there laughs when someone is relieving them self's. Fucking idiots... They fart and laugh, Boys are so amused. I threw a bottle cap on the ground and they played with it the entire period!...I swear to god. Someone Please pray for me..

SEE YA!

Yes,
Today is sunday...I went with my mother to work today at FedEx. Checking the tire depths and what not. I missed another call from Astrade and I am attempting to call him but no answer. Oh well. I guess he is pretty mad at me about last night. I was in another "mood." A morbid mood, explaining to myself that the world would be better with out me.I wasn't going to commit suicide it is just soemthing he assumed. I called one of my friend billy and tried to get him to pull me out of it. But it didn't work... he just kept saying "don't do it." So at like 9:34pm billy called me on his cell phone and said. 

"Astrade wants to talk to you..." I took the call and Astrade called me 'a foolish little girl.' He told me he wanted twenty reasons why I should live. Written on paper by monday...I have 27. God. I felt like a puppy getting yelled at by its master. I found myself calling him 'sir' and imagened him grinning evily. *shakes.*

On a different note,
I had onion rings last night. BEST ONION RINGS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD! Fortunatoes onion rings... I am now wondering why I was in a morbid mood.

Yesterday morning I went with my friend to her christain school. Two words discribe this.
"OH boy," but it was okay considering she has some kick ass friends who loves being retards. So do I. But the boring part was that we were at the schools "yard  sale." Except it was raining outside and it looked like with all the fog you could walk off the edge of the earth so it became a "In  door sale." Everyroom was filled to the brim with old crap. Ugh! I wanted to buy something but found myself in the hallway being a retard then in the stores.

Being a retard includes:
1.Dancing to cell phone rings
2. Break dancing to now music
3. buying stuffed animals and naming them odd names such as "Bagel, ketchup, muffin,"
4. Jumping into a huge puddle.
5. Dancing in the rain.
6. Acting Gangster.
7. buying hats and putting them on.

8. Buying coffee in the morning and drinking till we are insanely hyper.

9.Bitch slap your best freind >>

10. Thats lydia in her freakin cool bob the builder hat that I bought her for $0.10 at the ghetto market.

11. Dancing, running, slamming and jumping into walls and screaming like retards!

~~~
All and all I had a kick ass time!
I love you lydia!!!

PS. Lydia is not a bible fucker and she was forced to attend the school.

pss. Never hump the bible or it will fuck you up the ass.

Today was eventful actually,
Everyday is full of drama and events so you could call it a normal day at harford tech. Astard kept tickling me all day and he kept saying I was cute. He passed out on the phone last night. Astard, poor astrade was sick, he took nyquil and went to bed. He told me not to take anything he said serouisly after 20mins after he took his Nyquil. So he starts talking then slowly fades out and says "Your so beautiful..." I blushed deep red and said "Your gonna regret saying that Astrade." Then he was falling a sleep in a calm voice I told him.
"Go to sleep Astrade..." So we said go bye to each other and he hung up.
He tries to be tough all the time but when he talked to me halfway asleep he sounded like a small puppy. I went to sleep probably right after he did.
Anyway, I might be having a birthday party on april 16th. And tomarrow is april fools!

So watch out for your god damn friends who will play a trick on you.  But on the other had you might get what you deserve... I could think of a few people... *cough, cough.* mike...

Tomarrow morning rabit four corners.

A strange tradition but still!!!
HOW TO DO RABBIT FOUR CORNERS!
1. When you get up in the morning touch the four corners of your bed and say rabbit.

Only  one thing!!! It is supposed to bring you good luck I dont know....

~kitsune22000 out